So, as most know Harvey and I had gone our seperate ways for awhile, as things just werent working out. Im not going to go into detail about that because that is something personal to me, and id like to keep it to myself. Well Harvey and I never really gave up on our relationship. I mean after 6 years how can you just walk away forever? We just needed time apart. I was stressed between work and kadyn. (Our relationship got hard when we found out about Kadyn) Harvey was stressed with his work, bills, Kadyn, and my horrible attitude. I dont take full blame but i do know i gave him a very hard time and im very sorry for it and he knows it. Well we decided a couple weeks ago that we just cant live without each other and patched things back up and now are back together. Thank goodness. I never believed in having children before marriage and i think between my stress with Kadyn, and me being disappointed in myself i just totally went crazy for awhile. Well as things settled with the stress levels, i think i just sat down one night was like ok SARA enough is enough. Why be stressed over the unstoppable, of course im going to be stressed but why make it known why shove it in someone elses face. Dont let it take over your life! So since that night i deicded im going to be the girl that Harvey met in highschool.
Well now we are back together. How exciteing! Ive never been so happy. My family feels so complete now, and i feel overjoyed. We have gotten along great, its been nothing but smiles and goofing around like normal, and kadyn has alot to do with it also. kadyn brought us closer. I love Harvey with all my heart, not only because he is the father of my beauitful son but because we get along so well, he completes me. Its amazing. We are a FAMILY again. Yes we plan on getting married, but the finances just arent there yet, and we are still patching up a couple rough spots. But life is beautiful again.
I also decided that i want to start going back to church again. I guess you can say i lost my faith for awhile, i just lost hope but i found it again, and i think it had something to due with Caymans Benifit.
Let me explain why i stopped going. Everyong knows that i dont live in the best of areas, most would consider where i live the ghetto i guess but not as bad. Well when Kadyn was born before that i never went to church and after i wanted him to grow up with faith in his life, and i wanted to start mine. Well i went to a church were Harveys family always went, and some still go there. I didnt go alone, i went with Harveys cousins Wife Aimee and her Son Matthew. Well, i walk in and everything is fine. (Kaydn was a newborn so his head was still huge) I pic kadyn up and i got a bunch of stares, now being in a church setting i wouldnt expect such horrifing stares. I mean you can tell the difference between a horrifies stare and a curious stare, and let me tell you they were far from curious. I left that morning and i never went back, i didnt want to put kadyn in the situation, and i thought of all places that kadyn would be accepted in a church setting, but not there not here. Maybe its a michigan thing? I dont know, but i cryed that day and i held my son and cried hard and i wondered to myself, why couldnt anyone else seen the beauty in my son thought i had seen, that my family has seen and his father sees. What was wrong with those people and i havent been back. Now i went to Caymans benifit and everyone was just too loving adn adoring of such a lil angel. It inspired me, to go to a DIFFERENT church, and if harveys family cant accept that well so be it. So, im going to talk to harvey about tha to see if he would like to go also, and go to church this sunday. I think it will be nice. So we will see how things go. I want to baptize Kadyn and harvey does also
Anyways. I am going to go fix me some dinner