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Thursday, November 19, 2009

Sometimes I think too much..

The past two years have probably been the hardest, saddest, and happiest two years of my life. I have had many days where I am just thankful to have my little family. Other days, I get the feeling of being selfish for Kadyn going through all that he has gone through, but when I see him smile I realize that he isn't suffering. He is just going through some bumps in his road of life. Many people go through many bumps, sometimes mountains. I think Kadyn has about climb his mountain of medical messes. I feel blessed to know that Kadyn is happy no matter what life throws him. Then I wonder, why can't everyone else be this matter what life throws them. Kadyn doesn't know anything more than surgeries, seizures, hospitals, pokes, and all. This is his normal and it is a miserable normal, and yet he smiles more than anyone I know. I think he gets that from me. I am the type that no matter how horrible i feel, or how much I feel like I could cry, I always just smile. I always think to myself that tomorrow is another day and if its going to rain then I will just take it on. I have learned the past two years so much more about myself. Kadyn has taught me so much about myself!

Kadyn gets his special chair on Wednesday. I am excited. Minus the part were it can come anywhere between 9am and 6pm, but it's worth the wait to see Kadyn in his chair. :-)


alfrhnsby said...

Good Post...!

Kristen said...

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