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Sunday, May 2, 2010

Lyrics that changed my life

I first heard this song when someone awesome people made Kadyn a wonderful video.

I'm down on my knees again tonight
I'm hoping this prayer will turn out right
See there is a boy that needs Your help
I've done all that I can do myself
His mother is tired
I'm sure You can understand
Each night as he sleeps
She goes in to hold his hand
And she tries not to cry
As the tears fill her eyes

Can You hear me?
Am I getting through tonight?
Can You see him?
Can You make him feel all right?
If You can hear me
Let me take his place somehow
See, he's not just anyone
He's my son

Sometimes late at night I watch him sleep
I dream of the boy he'd like to be
I try to be strong and see him through
But God who he needs right now is You
Let him grow old
Live life without this fear
What would I be
Living without him here
He's so tired and he's scared
Let him know that You're there


Can You hear me?
Can You see him?
Please don't leave him
He's my son

This song really explains how I feel about Kadyn. To me is isn't just anyone, he is my son and I love him with all my heart. We are both tired of fighting this condition but we will keep going on. God has a purpose for Kadyn, although I am not sure what it is yet, I know one day this will be reveled to me. Kadyn is a very special boy and he is so happy for all he has gone through. To wake up and see him smile every morning is truly a blessing. He is almost 3 years old, and these 3 years doctors predicted I wouldn't have with him, so everyday, every hour, minuted second, month, year, week it's all truly a wonderful blessing. I don't know what my life would be like right now if I didn't have Kadyn. I was told once you have a child, it's like you have always had them. Well that is how I feel. I totally forgot what my life was like before him and I am glad. Kadyn is my world.

Things have been a bit stressful the past week. Kadyn is not happy at all. He is constantly crying and when he isn't he is eating. Although that has been difficult to so. I am hoping it is because it is because of the crazy weather in the area. I totally am going to give this a couple more days then I am going to take him to the clinic and have him checked out. The stressful thing about Kadyn's condition is never knowing what the real problem is. I am constantly debating what to do, should I take him in, is it his shunt, cold, flu weather? Or just him being unhappy, which that is very rare. I am most likely going to take him tomorrow or Tuesday. This worries me because he is refusing to take his medication. All together no matter what I do he refuses it.

I am pretty sure it's either his shunt or the weather. :( I hope weather.


Anonymous said...

kaydyns purpose is simple to change your life, to show u how strong u are, to open everyones eyes who reads this blog we all get strength from him if he can go through all this and still smile who are we to complain he has not only changed ur life he has changed the lives of all your readers your strength is amazing and youre a great mama